running away

running away always seems like a good idea. i mean, i never sit and think about what the reason is or the consequences of whatever action i decide to take. and i always think that i can out run whatever it is that i'm running from in the first place.

something snapped in me thursday night. i didn't want to be here. i couldn't handle another day. i wanted to be away from everything that remotely led me to think about what i was avoiding. its sinking in that i'm no longer a college student, but an actual adult. i'm responisible. i'm salaried. and have benefits. and something about that scared me. so i ran.



it never occured to me that God would meet me where i ran too. i figured he would get back to me after i came back home. after i stopped running. ha, was i wrong!! through a series of events, i ended up on VA beach about 11pm friday night. and God was waiting for me. He lined up my favorite stars. as i sat and watched the waves crash against the shore, something began to happen in my soul. the part of me that had closed up and shut off and tuned out God couldn't help but open up. and as i opened up, something soothing happened.

i don't know why i am always surprised to get such a loving response from up above. i have a lot roaming up in my head but God met me in the middle of the night on a very deserted beach and showed me how much He loves me.